Category: Shame and Guilt

• An Awakening

  3–5 minutes

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  01/14/2020

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  art, Bipolar Art, Bipolar Disorder, Childhood sexual abuse, Chronic Depression, clean, concrete art, Confidence!, Creativity, death, disability, faith, Found Objects, garden art, gift, God, gratitude, grief, Hope, identity, Injustice, insomnia, Joy, learning, love, Mania, mental illness, metamorphosis, artist, love, change, recovery, rebirth, Mixed Media, moving day, moving on, out of the gutter, pain, painting, poems, promises, Psychiatrist, PTSD, Real Life, Recovery, Healing, recycled art, Serenity, Sex abuse, sexual assault, Shame and Guilt, sobriety, Success, Therapy, Vigil

  Sleep has been a constant goal for me since I put down drugs and copious amounts of alcohol. Yet it has been the most evasive and endangered of species, teasing me with scattered glimpses of it’s eternal beauty. Oh, how I have longed for it’s soothing embrace, and so have everyone I have contact with;…

  

• Feeling at War with Myself

  1–2 minutes

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  12/28/2019

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  art, Bipolar Art, Bipolar Disorder, Childhood sexual abuse, Chronic Depression, Denial, disability, Flashbacks, gratitude, grief, Handicapped, identity, insomnia, mental illness, metamorphosis, artist, love, change, recovery, rebirth, mothers, out of the gutter, pain, painting, promises, Psychiatrist, PTSD, re-purposed, Real Life, Recovery, Healing, Sex abuse, sexual assault, Shame and Guilt, shih-tzus, sobriety, Therapy

  I have been languishing here, letting myself fall off the edge of sanity for a while. Is it physical?emotional?spiritual? No, not spiritual, for I feel close to my Creator. I just feel diminished, somehow, like my life’s blood has been watered down. Perhaps when the rainy season ends I will blossom again. Till then, my…

  

• An Introduction and Trigger Warning!

  2–3 minutes

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  09/10/2019

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  art, Bipolar Art, Bipolar Disorder, Childhood sexual abuse, Creativity, Flashbacks, gratitude, Hope, insomnia, Joy, love, Mania, mental illness, Mixed Media, out of the gutter, pain, painting, PTSD, Sex abuse, sexual assault, Shame and Guilt, sobriety, Therapy

  Boom. Just like that! I pushed a button, chose the business plan, and I’m up and running… Why don’t you come run with me for a while? You can see me falter, catch my breath, take a few more steps, laugh, get a stitch in my side, take another step or two…and then give it…

  

• Isolationism

  1–2 minutes

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  04/08/2019

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  art, clean, Confidence!, Creativity, Flashbacks, gift, gratitude, Hope, Joy, love, mental illness, metamorphosis, artist, love, change, recovery, rebirth, out of the gutter, pain, painting, Psychiatrist, PTSD, Real Life, Serenity, Sex abuse, sexual assault, Shame and Guilt, sobriety, Therapy

  At times the Artist feels so exposed…so unlike the rest…so isolated from the rest of humankind… She express this as ,”Feeling like I am painted Green”.

  

• A Saint Petersburg Artist Resident

  2–3 minutes

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  03/02/2019

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  acrylic, art, Bipolar Disorder, Childhood sexual abuse, clean, Confidence!, Creativity, faith, Flashbacks, gift, God, gratitude, grief, Hope, Injustice, Joy, love, mental illness, metamorphosis, artist, love, change, recovery, rebirth, moving day, moving on, Oil, out of the gutter, pain, painting, poems, promises, PTSD, re-purposed, Real Life, recycled, Serenity, Sex abuse, sexual assault, Shame and Guilt, Therapy, treasures, Vigil

  It has been an enormously trying year and one half, year and 8 months , actually. I have grown SO much since I have lived here in St. Petersburg, I have learned to believe in myself, and in my ability to survive. As An ARTIST.  In my own right, I have put in the footwork, stretched…

  

• We’re All Innocent by Susan T. Martin

  1–2 minutes

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  12/24/2018

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  acrylic, art, Bipolar Disorder, Childhood sexual abuse, Creativity, death, Denial, faith, Flashbacks, gift, gratitude, grief, Hope, Injustice, insomnia, love, mental illness, metamorphosis, artist, love, change, recovery, rebirth, mothers, out of the gutter, pain, painting, promises, PTSD, re-purposed, Real Life, recycled, Sex abuse, sexual assault, Shame and Guilt, sobriety, Therapy, treasures

  This painting is Mixed Media on Canvas, 24″x 36″ signed and unframed. It is the culmination of months of work and thought, and is now, finally, at a stage I can call finished. I think we have spoken to one another long enough, now I will let it speak to you. There are many ways…

  

• RILEY the Elegant Elephant

  1–2 minutes

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  12/23/2017

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  art, Art Collectors, Artistic Excellence, Assemblage, Best, Bipolar Art, Bipolar Disorder, Childhood sexual abuse, Chronic Depression, clean, Confidence!, Creativity, death, Denial, digital art, disability, Employment, Excellence, faith, Finances, Flashbacks, Found Objects, garden art, garden Photography, gift, God, gratitude, grief, Handicapped, Hope, identity, Injustice, insomnia, Investing in Art, Joy, learning, love, Making Money, Mania, Master, Mixed Media, mothers, moving day, moving on, out of the gutter, pain, painting, Photography, poems, promises, Psychiatrist, PTSD, re-purposed, Real Life, Recovery, Healing, recycled, recycled art, repurposed, Retirement,, Saving Money, Serenity, sexual assault, Shame and Guilt, shih-tzus, sobriety, Success, Teaching, Therapy, Top, Uncategorized

  An update on our dear friend Riley!