And the Beat Goes On

Must Keep Pushing Forward!!! . I have had a bit of a setback, lost momentum for a bit. I let myself get frightened and I backed off from my new business endeavor... . But I am gathering up my courage, and the funds I lost thru my ignorance of Web Hosting companies. It is a …

Well, That Didn’t Last Very Long!!!

Oh my, I have SO much to learn!!! I have made another financial blunder , it seems. I make them frequently, so Im not surprised. Just like I am not surprised that I locked my keys in my car this afternoon while parked under a huge Osprey Nest. So, right when I shut the door …

Am I CRUSHED?

NOT THIS TIME! The results are in, and I didn't make the cut again this year. It's ok, though, surprisingly. I don't feel my cheeks burning with shame; that subsided a few minutes ago... Last year I really took it hard, and hid under the covers for a day, feeling utterly cast aside and trampled …

I Am Crushing It

Endless reality, it's always here- even before I open my eyes. Reverberating. Agonizing in it, I try to back away from it, back into my dreams. It is futile. The reality encroaches, angry at being left waiting. . My eyes reluctantly open, brows already furrowed. I will certainly have that deep furrow between my eyes …

You Are What You ART

Feeding the Inner Creative What motivates you to create your art? When you hit a snag, where do you go to get your spark back? If I'm not careful, when I hit a slump I binge watch murder documentaries... Not good creative fodder. That just brings out negative vibes for me. So what I do …

A CLEAN SLATE

oh so WHITE AND SHINY... Waiting for my pen, for my brush. I just cant stand the barrenness of it, stretching of into the infinite distance, saying nothing. I cant sit in silence either, in a social setting. I would be awful in an interrogation, babbling mindlessly- wait... not mindlessly. I do get chatty, but …

DEEP DIVE:

how it feels to be ME... ___________}}}}}}}}{{{{{{{{__________ This is the call prospectus; I will somehow communicate visually to you (since I am a visual artist) the feeling of being Bipolar. My inner workings, tickings, thinkings: the fears and joys, ups and downs, backward-and-forward loves and hates...ALL the fuzzies , and the rough edges, swirly thoughts …

Busting Out All Over/Head Banging

DID you ever feel so immobilized that you wanted to EXPLODE?!? WELL, I DO!! I am so sick of myself, so tired of being tired, so FRUSTRATED at my own inertia that I could scream. I don't think it's "Long Covid" . I think it's " I'm a Super Lazy LOSER!!" (as I look back …

The Days of Trouble Begin

"...I will carry the Hurt. But it will NOT defeat me...)

For The Love of DETAIL

The Magic Bus AT ALTITUDE / SUSAN TODD MARTIN 2022 New art, the tiny line moving across the canvas. my pin-dot imaginary School Bus driving thru a blazing white desert.(That's funny, a School Bus! Why not a Mach I , or a horse or something? I'm such a child inside). I spend a lot of …

The Mural Dream of a Cool Kid

"I was high on life, and probably paint fumes and Columbian Gold...it felt cool..."

NO-vid

"I'm back in Black and White, and better than EVER!"

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