Dreaming in Reverse : I dream “backwards time”‘, when all was possible. Even easy. It just wanted me to turn towards the light, and fame would be mine. I knew myself so intimately, and was dead certain the world wanted me…longed for me and my art.

   So to jump from that certainty to the current doubtful oldness was , indeed, shocking. How had this vast expanse been so neatly, so quickly and quietly traversed. I leapt straight from the beauty of youth into the straight-jacket of a coffin. Maybe the world still wanted Mick and Johnny; it would not want some old unknown woman.

Why did I WANT the world to want me? Perhaps Cheap Trick knew the answer all these decades on, “I want you to want ME”

“I want you to want me. I need you to need me. I’d love you to love me, I’m begging you to beg me…